I'm about to make an admission many writers are afraid
to make. I am envious of other writers' works. Even jealous, coveting. When it
comes to other people's literature, I must be breaking the Ninth and Tenth Commandments at least.
When I read an awesome work by another writer, I go
through several phases.
- Awe – I am
captured by the story and especially the main character. I read it continuously and even when I
have put it down for the moment, I'm still thinking about it.
- Jealousy –
I think to myself 'I wish could
write that well'.
- Depression –
I'm down because I don't think I'll ever be able to write that well.
- Evaluation –
I look at the story in detail to try and figure out why that story was so successful.
- Improvement
– Everything I write from this point on is better because of what I have
learned from studying this author's work.
As an example, I'm reading the YA Dystopian novel
Divergent. Many people think the plot is
a little absurd, but I can easily see how it became a #1 seller. The main character's narration is awesome.
She jumps right out of the book and talks to the reader.
I spent yesterday in the jealousy and depression
phases as a result of what I read. I envied the writer's ability to make a
character jump out of the book like that and was feeling down I could not to it
that well. However, today I was able to
analyze and evaluate why I as a reader relate so well to the narrator. And, as
I worked on the finishing touches of my novel Bear Dreamer, I was able to make
my main character's voice stand out just a little more. So, I guess it was
worth dancing with the Devil for a couple songs.
Yes, some of my emotions look pretty bad on the
surface. However, as a result of these negative feelings my next work will be
better. It's a lot like a weight lifter who works out until his arms are
sore. When he gets over the soreness, he
is able to lift more weight.
I really don't think jealousy in this instance is an
evil thing as long as it does not drive you to wish bad things on the
author. If disciplined properly, it can
be a force to help you improve.