I've been writing seriously for about three years now and
have learned to handle personal rejections like "Your story nearly made
the next cut" or "We almost passed it on for the entertainment value
alone." Even the generic "Your
story did not fit our needs at the moment" is something I'm used to by
now. But I got one today in which the
editor said " Ian's (my main character's)
voice didn't quite come alive for me, and the setting wasn't as vivid as
I'd prefer." That devastated me so much, for two hours or so I felt like I
was ready to give up writing then and there.
Character development had become job one for me, and I wrote
a couple novellas and short stories with the voice of the main character as the
top priority. Also, I began rewriting my
first novel, this time with a strong main character's voice in first person. It
looked like I was making real progress.
Critters for the other novella and the rewrite of my novel commented
that the voice of the MC comes across very well. Thus, when I received the line
"Ian's voice didn't quite come alive for me" it was like a blow to
the heart.
So, have I failed as a writer? In all honesty, I did not try to get inside
my MC's head as much as I did in the other stories I wrote during this period. It was by design, as I imagined this story as
more of a plot-driven and faster moving story.
Was I wrong in writing it this way?
Should the writer always get
as much inside the head of his characters as possible? Or, should I just forget what happened today
and send the story off to someone else tomorrow?
Anyway, I've ranted enough.
Please excuse my narcissism, I get quite self-centered when I get
depressed about my writing. I'll be back
to reasonable sanity in a couple days (I hope).
I know people who read my posts have given me more support than I could
ever hope to return, but I'm still dying to know about your opinion on these
experiences. Can someone please give me
some objective feedback on what I've just experienced?